I die, from inside.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

I don't know why but I can cry so easily nowadays.

am I too weak?

or too tired?

I don't know.

maybe cause there's too many things I kept inside. 

love,

nurulainfarhana

I wish...

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes I wish things are different.

far from problems that seems to never go away , hatred, frustration, sadness.

I'm too weak to see the people that I love cried and feeling sad.

I wonder how someone could be so blind, so stupid, so selfish that they can't see they are hurting people around them.

have such high ego that they couldn't see they were the one who at fault.

creating problems without even think of it first.

I'm tired,

and ANNOYED.

Ya Allah.

love,
nurulainfarhana

I won't put my hands up and surrender.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes you have the feeling, the urge, the desire to fulfill everyone's wishes.

everyone around you.

 to give everything they want in life.

everything they need.

everything you think they need.

but you just so helpless.

when all you can do is watch.

and pray that one day,

one fine day, you have the power to fulfill these dream.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Please guide me to the right path.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes I wonder, am I doing the right thing?

is this feeling right?

I'm scared.

love,

nurulainfarhana

pabila jantung berdegup lebih laju dari biasa.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

*jantung dupdapdupdap

esok pagi, result final examination semester 3 akan keluar menjengah dan memunculkan diri tanpa rasa belas kasihan sobs

Ya Allah, takutnya!

tak tahu nak expect apa.

Dean's List?

I don't know T.T

tapi kalau dapat, bersyukur sangat sangat sangat.

jantung ni dari tadi laju melebihi tahap normal.

nervous gila bak hang -.-

malam ni macam tak boleh nak melelapkan mata je rasanya.

kalau mr.gendut ada sekarang ni, mesti I dah bebel-bebel cuak terlebih kat dia huu.

he's still on the plane I guess.

have a safe journey okay.

please pray for me.

untunglah tak payah check result awal-awal kan? haha

I'll have to do something so that I won't feel nervous as hell!

nak tidur boleh tak? and tak bangun esok satu hari muehehehe *sigh

apa-apa pun, redha dengan apa pun result yang keluar esok.

dah cuba sehabis mungkin, tawakal. so kena redha.

bak kata Ustazah Semanis Kurma,

'anda buat, anda dapat' haha

love,

nurulainfarhana

I'm in love with you, and all these little things.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Time flies really fast when you have fun.

a year back, on the same date as today,

 I met him for the first time.

not the first time technically cause we're on the same school way back then,

but I never talked to him or even care about his existence LOL

we were a complete stranger.

living in our own world, doing our own stuffs.

7 November 2011.

mark the date.

I met him.

we were going out together, just the two of us.

crazy-last minute planning-lepaking

I still can't recall why on earth I was going out with a stranger I've only known through facebook.
yeah, thank you facebook haha.

maybe because we were comfortable with each other.

sharing stories.

chatting the whole night sampai Subuh.

make fun of each other.

laughing.

fighting.

I miss the old time :')

first time I met you, I never thought you'll be so important to me.

never thought we'll make it this far.

creating so much memories.

left-le mr.gendut one year ago and right, he's now.

selekeh gila I time zaman tok kaduk setahun dulu muahahaha -.-
mr.gendut cakap, sekarang snap picture with le girlfriend and she's mine,
 tak macam a year ago anyonyonyo :3

he'll fly to Beijing tomorrow and will be gone for a week.
holiday with his friends from Uitm Penang sobs
how I wish me iz can go also.
 please take care and come back safely.
lovechuuu.

love,
nurulainfarhana

If you're a bird, i'm a bird.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 I want you, I want all of you, forever, you and me everyday. 

 

**

 

 The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more.

 

**

 

I've just finished watching The Notebook.

aww it makes me cried :')

it's a beautiful movie.

I know i'm a little bit lame cause I watched it for the first time, whatevaaa haha

I really wish I could read the novel too.

it would be wayyyyy more interesting, right?

Nicholas Spark is soo awesome.

 oh man, wish to love like Noah and Allie

so passionate and really know what their heart want.

love till their end of life.

isn't that adorable? :')

and the way he's looking at her is so, I don't know how to describe. so something.

will you look at me the same way mr.gendut? haha

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

so we made our way by finding what was real.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

there's a question that keeps on appearing in my head

and keeps on playing in my mind.

I wonder why we keep on doing thing that is certainly wrong?

it's like some sort of habit and most of the people are doing it without even feel guilty.

when I say most of the people, I mean all of the people around me.

is it a habit? 

or a routine?

or something you feel proud of?

or you feel like doing it because everyone else did?

or what?

I don't know.

even the people that I didn't even think will do that thing is doing it.

why?

even me, myself #sigh

I know it's wrong and I do feel guilty about it but why I didn't say anything?

why don't you say anything?

yeah I know we shouldn't judge someone with their appearance.

but I trusted you.

you're supposed to be different.

it's weird you know.

it's like having a conversation in your head.

when there's a tiny little voice keeps on reminds you that you did wrong and you should feel guilty,

but then there's you, trying to ignore that voice.

and in the same time, you're scared.

scared of what might happen next.

scared of your own self.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Do You Come Here Often?

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

it has been so long since I read novel.

there's one, been reading it since the beginning of my 3rd semester LOL.

there's always no time to finish it,

or too lazy to read I guess.

gonna finish it as soon as I can cause I really want to buy a new one,

the author's others novels.

 

**

one cup of warm milk.

comforter.

my cute little blue-rare-couldn't sleep without-bantal busuk.

 lifehouse's songs on music player.

** 

i'm ready to indulge myself with this novel.

Do You Come Here Often? by Alexandria Potter.

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

don't expect too much.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes people change.

things change.

or you expect it to be different.

wanted things to happen the way you wanted.

you feels annoyed.

and dissappointed in the end.

learn to accept.

redha.

accept people as they are.

accept things as they are.

the same way they accept you.

the beautiful and also the ugliest you.

even you are not that good.
so why bother searching for a better?

stand in front of the mirror.
check your own self.

everything happen for a reason.

wether it's bad or good, you decide.

love,

nurulainfarhana

fat fat go away!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

let's make an honest confession,

I'm seriously-critically-stressly-sadly getting fatter! T-T

ohmyyy

few days back, I timbang my weight andddddd....

this can't be happening!

adakah itu berat diriku sekarang? oh no!

almost fainted -,-

this is seriously a hugemassivebig matter!

I have to start to lose weight!

I must! *crying

ini adalah sangat mengstresskan daku

I'm so lazy to exercise, what to do?

sebulan duduk rumah ni, I'm gonna be a big fat woman if I don't start to work out

daku sudah tidak langsing. dang! *hantuk kepala dekat dinding 

lemak, please go away :(

rindu zaman less lemak.

love,

nurulainfarhana

4 down, 1 to go.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

4 down, 1 to go!

BEL 311

CTU 241

ECO 211

MGT 269

QMT 181

alhamdulillah, done with MGT 269

and now me is already beginning my countdown to go back to le home on Tuesday.

 going to sit for my last paper, statistics on that day

sangat takut

hopefully Allah permudahkan.

better start studying!

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

3 down, 2 to go.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 

 3 down, 2 to go.

BEL 311

CTU 241

ECO 211

MGT 269

QMT 181 

  

alhamdulillah, 2 more paper to go.

how's macroeconomics?

err I don't really know.

hanya mampu tawakal.

 

omjayy excited nak balik!

counting days dah ni

dah siap kemas baju masuk beg besar dah hee 

 

16 October, please come fast.

 

 

 love,

nurulainfarhana

2 down, 3 to go.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

2 down, 3 to go.

BEL 311

CTU 241

ECO 211

MGT 269

QMT 181 

 

alhamdulillah CTU semalam quite okay.

sekarang have to focus on Macroeconomics.

come on, Nurulain Farhana!

you can do it!

 

Macro, come to mama! hee 

 

love,

nurulainfarhana 

enough procrastinating.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

esok paper CTU

hopefully it's gonna be okayy

baru nak start study ni

dari semalam i'm procrastinate -.-

please pray for me

love,

nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

love,

nurulainfarhana

Ya Allah, please ease my journey.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

bahawasanya saya, Nurulain Farhana binti Abd Jalil secara official telah mula menempuhi final examination pada harini 1 October 2012, pada jam 9.00 pagi iaitu kertas BEL 311.
 not bad, quite okay I guess
alhamdulillah.

so, me iz apologize for all of my wrongdoings, please forgive me
and do pray for me
hopefully Allah permudahkan for the upcoming papers.

1 down, 4 to go.

BEL 311

CTU 241

ECO 211

MGT 269

QMT 181

you can do it Nurulain Farhana!
hoyeah chaiyok!

sekarang me have to study CTU!

love,
nurulainfarhana



 

final oh final!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

dengan hati yang berat terpaksa menerima kenyataan pagi nanti pukul 9 setengah I have to go back to Segamat

dan menerima kenyataan that it's time to get serious

dan sudah tiba masa untuk menempelkan muka ke buku-buku yang ada untuk mentelaah

you can do it nurulainfarhana!

hoyeah!

oh tadi pergi family dinner dekat KFC 

to say goodbye and goodluck to me maybe?

and menambahkan lemak-lemak di badan muahahaha

perasan lebih -.-

 my tulang belakang, buah hati limpa jantung! :D
the way Daniel dengan abah makan almost the same kan?
bapak borek anak rintik haha

mak and abah, please pray for me

everyone, please pray for me

hopefully everything gonna be alright

 may Allah ease everything

semoga diberi ketenangan dan keberkatan menjawab final exam

amin.

ampun dan maaf sekiranya ada salah silap.

tak nak balik boleh tak?

love,

nurulainfarhana

fat fat fat.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

duduk di rumah makan tido dengan senang hati is making me gain more weight! sobsob T.T

what can I do if i'm hungry all the time and the foods is always there dekat dapur?

air tangan mak yang menyelerakan, I cannot resist!

and here I am, getiing fatter :(

fat means happy what ngeeh

okay that's the biggest denial yang konon nak tutup rasa sedih sebab sudah tidak langsing -.-

mereka di sekeliling pun dah mengiyakan kenyataan that i'm getting fatter omjayy!

*menangis 

 

foine foine lepas ni I'll drag myself to le gym or jogging around campus

insyaallah :D

but my bed always drag me first, daku tidak mampu menolak hehe

what to do? #sigh

I'll exercise, I will!

love,

nurulainfarhana

final final!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

disebabkan perasaan bersalah + worry sampai nak terkeluar jantung

 sebab haven't start studying yet,

so daku membuat keputusan untuk pulang ke Segamat pada hari Jumaat
*sobbing

padahal dah beli ticket balik bertarikh 30 September iaitu hari Ahad -.-

so abah terpaksalah menggagahkan diri menghantar diriku membeli ticket lain esok hari

bijak sungguh anakmu ini kan grr

at first kononnya nak buat chill balik Ahad walaupun start final hari Isnin

 sebab rasa macam takkan study je kalau balik awal pun

tapi bila dengar macam semua orang dah nak berangkat pulang,

me iz no chill anymoree!

me have to start study

omjayyy!

gugur jantung tahu? gugurrr!

final is coming bebeh!

Ya Allah, permudahkan segala urusan.

love,

nurulainfarhana

live and let it be.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

life is amazing isn't it?
full of surprises
full of things you never expect to happen
you cry, you laugh, you love, you hurt
you win, you lose, you fall, you stand
you experience things that make you grow up
that make you grow even stronger
everything happen for a reason
you just have to look at the other side of it
only then you'll know the bright side
being positive-it is the most important thing in life
live and let it be.

love,

nurulainfarhana

here i am.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm back to where i'm belong-my family
people who will never leave me no matter what happen
people who always be there for me
who accept me as who i am

ohana means family
family means nobody get left behind
-lilo and stitch-

love,
nurulainfarhana

it's once said.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

teringat apa yang nenek cakap masa balik kampung haritu

'kawan-kawan jangan gaduh-gaduh'

nenek macam tahu je haha

it's happen nek #sigh

love,

nurulainfarhana

going back to le kampung.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

*coughcough

me iz having fever right now sobs

sambil bertemankan Running Man dan katil tercinta

please go away as soon as possible

 

rindu rumah, nak balik! hm

esok balik kampung! weee

dapat jumpa atok and nenek pun kira okayla kan

with lee powerpuffgirls

kitorang kena buat video arab, duration 10 mins, any topic

so we decided nak shooting (cewah shooting hehe)  kat rumah my atok and nenek

excited ngehehe

me better sleep so esok I can gain back my energy

dah macam jelly, lemah longlai -.-

love,

nurulainfarhana

big girl do cry.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

I can cry over the smallest tiniest little thing.

small thing can be huge to me.

that's me and no one can change that.

either you take it or you leave it.

love,

nurulainfarhana

sorry seem to be the hardest words.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 "I'll never break your heart,

I'll never make you cry."

have you ever cry when there's people around 

and you have to rush to the toilet?

stay inside and burst into tears.

and have to wait in there because of your swollen eyes.

love,

nurulainfarhana

i'm falling to pieces.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm torn.

wish raya yang agak lambat.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN :D

tersangatlah lambat wish raya -.-
raya sebulan maa hee
busy sangat sampai tak sempat nak post pasal raya
eceh padahal malas ngehehe

well, raya was great!
syukur alhamdulillah dapat berpuasa sebulan
and masih bernafas di pagi Syawal

here's some pictures
too lazy to type xD

le us on the way from Segamat to TBS. muka semua baru bangun tidur haha

bawak beg besar macam nak balik lama je wee

ehem..muka excited nak jumpa mr.gendut yang datang jemput dekat TBS + excited nak pergi berwindow shopping dekat KL. 

hujan lebat lepas tu -.-

mr.gendut hampir-hampir basah kuyup kena air hahaha

di pagi raya. 

this is what we usually do every pagi Syawal. berkumpul ramai-ramai kat rumah nenek atok sebelah emak. bermaaf-maafan sambil minta duit raya hee

me iz still got duit raya  u knoww!

belum kerja maa

with le ozemm cousin

teman merayau merempit satu kampung bawak lari motor atok, mandi sungai, gosip-gosip, dating zaman tok kaduk muahaha

she's taking her SPM this year

goodluck my crime partner!

yeah, me iz tua than her -.-

i know i know

tapi nampak macam sebaya kan lalala

le whole familia potrait

still ada yang missing in action dalam these pictures

biasalah yang dah married tu, have to follow their husband kan

kesian sobs

along pun tak ada masa first Syawal.

and also abah hm

dah memang setiap tahun tak pernah raya dengan abah #sigh

my family yang paling sikit sobs

macam pelik je budak kecik gemok tu duduk hujung sekali haha.

abang jef dapat beraya this year

last year dia kena kerja so this year seminggu dia dekat kampung with us

rajin oh hahaha

tolong nenek refilled kuih raya, layan orang datang

dah macam kakak pulak xD

dah pakai lawa-lawa of course la kena posing banyak-banyak kan hewhewhew
ada orang tanya, kenapa your tudung dengan baju kurung macam tak matching je.
eh eh, mai tengok dekat-dekat
ada bunga kecil-kecil comel tiut miut colour macam tudung tu la kat baju kurung tu
rabun letteww :p

oh oh neighbour time rumah lama or should i say our family angkat datang beraya
memang dah macam family sendiri dah
i iz look fat in le photo T-T

this one is our cute grandma. arwah ayah abah punya kakak. get it? hee
she's over 100 years old i guess.
subhanallah. may Allah always bless you :')

here come abah with le oldest brother
abah balik time raya berapa entah. me iz forget -.-
the whole day pergi beraya sampai dah tak mampu bergerak haha

posing syok sendiri dalam kereta setelah penat mengisi perut ngehehe

budak gemok tu sangatlah selekeh haha
i suruh posing tapi dia korek hidung rupanya bila check balik gambar
merosakkan gambar je haha

anyways,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN :DD

love,
nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

it's okayy laa

dah biasa sangat jadi macam ni

#sigh

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

that moment III.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

*muka blushing tahap gaban

that shame-sta moment when you forgot you were wearing an eyeliner,

then suddenly went to take a bath

wash fash and etc etc

then walked back to your room dengan eyeliner sememeh dekat mata macam budak gothic

terserempak dengan rakan-rakan se-wing, 

senyum kambing without even realized about the goddamn eyeliner

oh god, why -,-

selekeh benor perangai!

love,

nurulainfarhana

it is not a goodbye, it is till we meet again.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

  saying goodbye to your love one 

is always the hardest thing to do.

 said my goodbyes to him just now. 

 I won’t be able to see him until next month I guess.

please take care mr.gendut.

 at least we have skype and stuff kan.

gambar time exam week sem lepas-konon nak study sama-sama mehehe

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s: tomorrow have to say goodbye to le familia pulak sebab dah nak balik Segamat. :'(

that moment when you want to see someone so bad.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

please don't go.

love,

nurulainfarhana

and the holiday begin.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

me is coming homeeee this morning :DD

tiket pukul 9 pagi muehehe

excited sampai tak boleh tido -,-

mak, wait for me!

ehem can't wait to meet you mr.gendut hee

love,

nurulainfarhana

and I was enchanted to meet you.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

love,

nurulainfarhana

never ever trust someone 100%.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

#sigh

bulan puasa bulan mulia, bulan barakah

tapi tak sangka ada orang sanggup buat jahat kat I

well, someone stole my money

not stole actually, I gave him the money without thinking with my 100% working brain 

stupid enough huh?

I still can't believe it happened to me

well, tengahari Jumaat haritu I was at the Segamat terminal alone waiting for my bus

nak balik rumah kan hee

tapi terminal tu ramai orang

20 minutes lagi rasanya bus nak sampai

then ada pakcik came to me

dia tanya betul ke tu terminal Segamat

dia baru first time datang

dia nak balik KL jugak

dia kata dia cikgu kat sekola Labis, something like that then apa entah lagi

Ya Allah, memang nampak macam orang baik

I tak fikir buruk langsung

I just glad I dapat tolong

 

then dia kata nak buat intercom, apa entah I pun tak tahu

terminal tu ada two level

dia kata kedai atas boleh buat sebab dia dah tanya yang bawah

dia ajak I teman sebab dia tak tahu

then without hesitate I teman dia

I don't know what am I thinking at that time

bukan pukau rasanya, subhanallah

just positive thinking kat orang

I tak reti fikir buruk, lagi-lagi kalau orang tua

sebab memang nampak baik sangat kot

nampak kesian

 

dia pergi kedai belakang tu

I tunggu kat depan

dia datang balik, dia cakap alhamdulillah kedai tu ada apa entah

dia tanya ada duit kecil tak kat I

dalam purse ada RM20 je masa tu

I cakap ada tu je

dia kata nak pinjam sekejap sebab takda duit kecil, dia tunjuk RM100

Ya Allah takda doubt langsung masa tu

then dia pergi

I tunggu tak muncul-muncul

 

dah nak pukul 1 masa tu, my bus dah sampai dah

I tunggu takda jugak then I turun

rasa macam nak menangis dah masa tu sebab macam dah kena tipu 

I was shivering kot

first time jadi

I tak boleh tunggu dah sebab bus dah ada

 I call mr.gendut then I pergi ATM sebab memang takda duit dah and terus naik bus 

time kat ATM tu menggigil kot sampai tak boleh nak tekan

kalau I tak try tahan memang dah menangis dah

time dalam bus I still thought that maybe dia tak tipu, tapi dia lambat sikit so I tak jumpa dia

even until now

was he?

haih

am I too naive?

or too kind?

or too stupid that I easily helps people?

 few weeks back pun I ada tolong orang kat TBS

he was wandering kat parking lot nampak macam lost

dia cari kereta tak jumpa and takda credit

dia pinjam handphone I 

luckily he really lost, bukan nak rompak ke apa ke

bila dah jadi macam ni, I terfikir jugak macam manalah kalau orang tu pun ada niat jahat

tapi seriously ke pakcik tu memang nak paw I? :(

 

niat I baik kot nak tolong, tapi tu yang I dapat

lepas ni memang kena more careful

never ever trust stranger anymore NURULAINFARHANA 

teruk family I membebel

tak tahulah whether dorang boleh percaya tak I balik sorang lepas ni 

and I pun macam tak percaya diri sendiri boleh ke tak balik sorang sobs

takut :(

dalam dunia ni, memang tak boleh nak baik sangat rupanya

#sigh

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s;

pakcik, wherever you are, if you really have bad intention towards me, please return to Allah.

saya dah halalkan duit tu.

tapi kalau betul pakcik tak sempat jumpa saya, saya minta maaf sebab buruk sangka.

Will you love me? Even with my dark side?

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

love,

nurulainfarhana

test.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

TEST 1 QMT

tonight, 8.30pm

Ya Allah, permudahkan segala urusanku.

love,

nurulainfarhana 

mock meeting I.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

mock meeting hari Isnin haritu went well.
positive comment from Puan Nazihah eventhough ada kurang here and there.
wahh terasa macam korporat gituuu hehe.

toilet pun jadi, before le meeting.

mr.chairman haha

le powerpuffgirls ahak!

marketing director of Xiety Sdn.Bhd. yang bajet macam businesswoman berjaya muehehe

overall, it was fun

quite good experince :D

love,

nurulainfarhana

life is just beautiful.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

don't put too much hope on something

or you will end up dying inside.

we, women are strong enough

so don't become weak for someone who doesn't even worth it

jodoh, ajal, maut dah ditentukan

insyaallah you'll find that someone soon.

maybe not now, not this time, not in this place.

who knows what Allah have for all of us, right?

not worth it habiskan air mata untuk orang yang tak hargai pun.

wipe your tears, head high and move on.

hidup perlu diteruskan

let bygone be bygone :)

you're strong babe! 

love,

nurulainfarhana

i don't care who you are.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

    ***

 

bila aku jatuh cinta, kan ku sebut namamu.

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; mock meeting was great. le photos are coming soon hee. tadi ada quiz statistic, question 1 is killing me T-T

mock meeting.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

today is the day!

mock meeting untuk subject MGT. 

meeting yang bakal dilakonkan oleh kami-kami.

script belum hafal sepenuhnya! T-T

hopefully, everything will be alright.

pakai baju formal nanti. weewiittt XD

 

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan kami.

amin.

love,

nurulainfarhana

don't you dare look out your window, darling everything on fire.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

luar nampak tenang,

tapi dalam tuhan je yang tahu.

love,

nurulainfarhana

easy said than done.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm scared of marriage. I really am. 

banyak sangat cerita and tragedies yang I dengar.

 problems in marriage, curang, poligami and else.

most of my friends going through the same thing in their family.

I've seen enough.

is that normal? is it true that men really can love more than one woman at one time?
i've heard too many same stories. husband cheated on their wife.
why can't they stay loyal with one woman?

 woman who truly loves them?
woman who loves them more than anything. 

why can't they? 

lelaki yang kita percaya, tipu and curang.

can you imagine that?

boleh imagine macammana perasaan perempuan tu?

benda ni normal ke?
so maknanya, mana-mana lelaki pun boleh buat?

yes, lelaki boleh poligami. and perempuan tak boleh persoalkan poligami. 

memang ada dalam Islam. sunnah Nabi. 

but do they follow the real sunnah or it's just lust?

kaji balik macammana cara Nabi, kenapa Nabi berpoligami.
kalau bab poligami, laju je cakap sunnah. bab lain? *gelak sinis
sorry to say, i'll walk away kalau that's happen to me.

memang dapat payung kuning kat akhirat nanti.

masyallah.

tak boleh lawan takdir, but i'm not that strong.
nanti lagi banyak dosa bila tak redha. 

I want Jannah.

 I hate it when men makes fun of poligami. bangga boleh kahwin ramai.
kau ingat senang? family kau happy la nanti?

most of the family I know, tak happy.

 kau tanggung la dosa anak bini kau nanti.
seronok kan? kau tak alami, so kau tak paham.

sorang pun susah nak jaga.

easy said than done.

kan lagi better kau berazam nak bimbing wife kau, bimbing untuk dapat syurga.

sama-sama muhasabah diri untuk jadi hamba Allah yang lagi baik :')
perempuan yang baik akan benarkan suami dia kahwin lain, tapi lelaki
yang baik takkan menduakan isteri dia. 

get it? 

in case kalau ada tersalah apa-apa, maaf.

 ilmu agama masih tak cukup

this iz le opinion only.

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; orang yang tak pernah alami, memang takkan paham.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

I don't get it.

seriously I don't.

hm

love,

nurulainfarhana

that moment when you're tired of everything.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

buat supersaver dengan harapan nak bersembang, 

but in the end macam cakap sorang-sorang.

cakap macam nak tak nak. 

am I that worthless?

terima kasih.

love,

nurulainfarhana

ramadhan al-mubarak.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

ramadhan is here again :')

kejapnya masa berlalu

rasa macam baru je puasa tahun lepas, puasa pertama di perantauan

di UiTM Segamat

pertama kali belajar sahur sendiri, berbuka sendiri without family tercinta

now ramadhan datang lagi

alhamdulillah masih bernafas untuk menyambut ramadhan kali ni

baru je balik from ma home

first ramadhan with le family

rasa macam taknak balik Segamat

but what to do kan #sigh

semoga ramadhan kali ni lebih bermakna and makes me strong

hopefully segala benda yang kusut dalam kepala ni will go away soon

penat dah serabut sendiri

selamat berpuasa mr.gendut

this is our first puasa together :)

please take care.

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

the affection, passionate, enthusiastic are nowhere in sight
are they gone with the wind?
gone with the gloomy midnight
the dim stars 
please come back and stay
stay with me, never leave again
i need you
you.

love,

nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 forgive me for im not perfect
for im not good enough
that I have so much attitudes that you have to bear
that im too much to handle
im not mad at you, im just mad at myself that I have so much that I ask from you
so much attention from you sampai nak merajuk all the time
so much love from you
so much understanding from you, nak you faham what I feel
wanted to see you so much
wanted to talk to you so much
and maybe that's too much for you
too much for you to handle, maybe penat nak melayan
im sorry

I dont know how you feel about that.
I wont ask that much anymore.

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; im so much emotional this few days, I have no idea why and what happen to me.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

have you ever feel that you're so pissed of and annoyed and bored
that you want to cry but there's no tears coming out?

love,
nurulainfarhana

all i want to do is grow old with you.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life.

 

When I'm With You-Faber Drive

harini Segamat mendung

sejuk macam US

hidung tak duduk diam

selsema sejak berhari-hari lepas

penuh bakul sampah dengan tisu

bila selsema, boleh buat alasan nak menangis

orang tak perasan kan?

eh tak nangis, selsemalah

gedik je kan

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

p/s; 3 days to 7 months of up and down together, tears and laughs. i miss you.

jubah's day!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm wearing jubah today, after a long time
there's a strange feeling in me
bila pakai jubah, terus nak pakai tudung tutup dada, labuhkan.
selalunya selempang je kat leher macam nak pergi pasar bila
malas then rasa nak pakai stokin
before ni memang i'm wearing stokin to prevent unexpected
feet's smell hehe

tapi this time, nak pakai sebab nak cover my aurat
inner dengan seluar memang kena pakailah sebab nanti my jubah
terbang-terbang jadi samurai pulak hee
rasa macam, oh my rasa secure je
bertutup, tak risau even there's guy lalu usha-usha ke
because i know i've cover my aurat
you know, that kind of feeling

terus jalan pun nak cover macam perempuan muslimah
how to behave and all
bila tengok muslimah yang lain yang memang bertudung labuh,
terus macam, okay one day
suka tengok diorang
and few of my friends dah memang berubah jadi a better muslimah
i wish i have that courage soon
malunya bila recall balik my appearance and what i've been
wearing all this time
tapi people nowadays lagi pelik tengok orang bertutup than
woman yang half naked
pandang nak pelik je
insyaallah, soon

ramadhan dah nak dekat ni, so better muhasabah diri banyak-banyak
muhasabah diri yang memang banyak dosa ni sobs
rasa macam nak pakai jubah everyday time ramadhan nanti so
i can cover my aurat without excuse
insyaallah :)

love,
nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

What I'd do to have you here, I wish you were here.  

What I'd do to have you near, I wish you were here.

love,

nurulainfarhana 

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 

I am waiting, still.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Jumaat yang barakah!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

aku wanita, aku kaum hawa

yang memang rapuh hatinya.

I'm alone in this empty room

staring blankly at the wall

trying not to miss home so much

trying not to be sad

trying not to cry

I have mr.lembu and elmo with me and the sweater

that always be with me even when I'm crying, even when nobody else does

I'm gonna be okay.

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; esok modul! masa part 1 and 2 excited je, sekarang macam pffttt! -,-