assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

I don't get it.

seriously I don't.

hm

love,

nurulainfarhana

that moment when you're tired of everything.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

buat supersaver dengan harapan nak bersembang, 

but in the end macam cakap sorang-sorang.

cakap macam nak tak nak. 

am I that worthless?

terima kasih.

love,

nurulainfarhana

ramadhan al-mubarak.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

ramadhan is here again :')

kejapnya masa berlalu

rasa macam baru je puasa tahun lepas, puasa pertama di perantauan

di UiTM Segamat

pertama kali belajar sahur sendiri, berbuka sendiri without family tercinta

now ramadhan datang lagi

alhamdulillah masih bernafas untuk menyambut ramadhan kali ni

baru je balik from ma home

first ramadhan with le family

rasa macam taknak balik Segamat

but what to do kan #sigh

semoga ramadhan kali ni lebih bermakna and makes me strong

hopefully segala benda yang kusut dalam kepala ni will go away soon

penat dah serabut sendiri

selamat berpuasa mr.gendut

this is our first puasa together :)

please take care.

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

the affection, passionate, enthusiastic are nowhere in sight
are they gone with the wind?
gone with the gloomy midnight
the dim stars 
please come back and stay
stay with me, never leave again
i need you
you.

love,

nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 forgive me for im not perfect
for im not good enough
that I have so much attitudes that you have to bear
that im too much to handle
im not mad at you, im just mad at myself that I have so much that I ask from you
so much attention from you sampai nak merajuk all the time
so much love from you
so much understanding from you, nak you faham what I feel
wanted to see you so much
wanted to talk to you so much
and maybe that's too much for you
too much for you to handle, maybe penat nak melayan
im sorry

I dont know how you feel about that.
I wont ask that much anymore.

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; im so much emotional this few days, I have no idea why and what happen to me.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

have you ever feel that you're so pissed of and annoyed and bored
that you want to cry but there's no tears coming out?

love,
nurulainfarhana

all i want to do is grow old with you.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life.

 

When I'm With You-Faber Drive

harini Segamat mendung

sejuk macam US

hidung tak duduk diam

selsema sejak berhari-hari lepas

penuh bakul sampah dengan tisu

bila selsema, boleh buat alasan nak menangis

orang tak perasan kan?

eh tak nangis, selsemalah

gedik je kan

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

p/s; 3 days to 7 months of up and down together, tears and laughs. i miss you.

jubah's day!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm wearing jubah today, after a long time
there's a strange feeling in me
bila pakai jubah, terus nak pakai tudung tutup dada, labuhkan.
selalunya selempang je kat leher macam nak pergi pasar bila
malas then rasa nak pakai stokin
before ni memang i'm wearing stokin to prevent unexpected
feet's smell hehe

tapi this time, nak pakai sebab nak cover my aurat
inner dengan seluar memang kena pakailah sebab nanti my jubah
terbang-terbang jadi samurai pulak hee
rasa macam, oh my rasa secure je
bertutup, tak risau even there's guy lalu usha-usha ke
because i know i've cover my aurat
you know, that kind of feeling

terus jalan pun nak cover macam perempuan muslimah
how to behave and all
bila tengok muslimah yang lain yang memang bertudung labuh,
terus macam, okay one day
suka tengok diorang
and few of my friends dah memang berubah jadi a better muslimah
i wish i have that courage soon
malunya bila recall balik my appearance and what i've been
wearing all this time
tapi people nowadays lagi pelik tengok orang bertutup than
woman yang half naked
pandang nak pelik je
insyaallah, soon

ramadhan dah nak dekat ni, so better muhasabah diri banyak-banyak
muhasabah diri yang memang banyak dosa ni sobs
rasa macam nak pakai jubah everyday time ramadhan nanti so
i can cover my aurat without excuse
insyaallah :)

love,
nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

What I'd do to have you here, I wish you were here.  

What I'd do to have you near, I wish you were here.

love,

nurulainfarhana 

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 

I am waiting, still.

love,

nurulainfarhana