assalamualaikum w.b.t
dear niahanara,
Background: Bee Gees-To Love Somebody
Sometimes I can be all emotional, feeling sad and drown in tears even without a reason.
I don't know why but my feeling can change in a blink of eyes.
And right now is one of the time.
Time of the month? Nope, not yet.
It's just that i'm feeling so emotional and miserable deep inside.
My thoughts are all mix up and jumble.
I'm happy with my life right now. I am? Yeah, hm of course.
I'm scared that once i'm too happy with something, it will be gone someday.
That it will be taken from me.
I'm scared that the happiness I have is not real.
I've seen people break into pieces just because their happiness were not real and gone.
Vanished just like vapors.
Sometimes I feel so insecure of all the things I have.
Of all people around me.
Are they real, are they really there for me?
Sometimes I just feel like I don't belong here.
I don't belong to anyone.
I feel like I don't have anyone, nobody love me.
Nobody really love me.
Nobody appreciate me.
Hm i'm that pathetic.
My feeling is just so complex.
I longed for someone to show their love to me.
Show how much they love, how much they care.
Even with the tiny littlest way.
Tell the world that i'm important.
That I should not feel inseure.
Yeah, i'm that greedy.
I'm tired of the feeling of being left out.
I'm tired of thinking whether people really accept me, whether I've done wrong or not,
whether I've said something wrong, whether I should remains cool and act like i'm okay.
I want to be the special one.
I know I should be thankful for what I have but i'm too scared that someday when I open my eyes, it all gone.
That I'll be all alone.
love,
nurulainfarhana
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