In the end, everyone end up alone.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Have you ever feel like you don't belong?

You feel like you're just a stranger trying to cope with the situation.

You fake a smile.

Hanya jasad dan senyuman palsu yang ada, hati dan fikiran melayang jauh.

Jauh memikirkan adakah kau benar-benar diterima.

Ikhlaskah?

love,

nurulainfarhana

'Bestfriend till the very end.'

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Cher Lloyd-Oath.

Yo, my best friend, best friend til the very end
Cause best friends, best friends don't have to pretend
You need a hand, and i'm right there right beside you
You in the dark, i'll be the bright light to guide you
'Member the times, times, times sneaking of the house
All of the times, times, times that you had the doubts
And don't forget all the trouble we got into
We got something you can't undo, do

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I know I drive you crazy, mm, sometimes
I know I called you lazy, and that's most times
But you complete me, and that's no lie
You are my tuxedo, and i'm your bow tie
We in the car, sing, sing, singing our song
Rocking the building, tear it down, like we king kong
And in my eyes, you can't do, do no wrong
You got the best friends sing, sing along

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I'll never let you go
Woah, this is my oath to you
Just thought that you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you

Yeah...
Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you
You should know, you should know, you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
Woah, this is my oath to you.

I wonder if there's someone out there that I can sing this song to.

Just wondering.

'Bestfriend till the very end.'

Someone who's really there and never leave.

Someone that I can always call my bestfriend.

To share everything.

To love me as I am.

love,

nurulainfarhana.

I'm 20-to-be!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Happy not so awesome-stay alone in my room in Segamat-away from family-New Year!

Oh I'm gonna turn 20 tomorrow!

Ni yang stress, lepas new year je birthday. Tak remajalah macam ni sobs.

Excited?

A big no no for that! 

20 maa, no more _teen something *dang!

Okay that's just so over reacting.

***

For the past 20 years, who am I?

What have I become?

Am I someone who can be proud of?

Am I somebody?

Am I a good servant of Allah?

Am I a good daughter to emak and abah?

Am I a good sister?

Am I a good friend?

Am I a good student?

Am I a good stranger?

What have I achieved?

I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot of wrongdoings.

Have I done my best in everything I do?

 I really don't know.

And I wish new year and new age gonna make me a better person.

Another birthday that I have to celebrate away from my family and my loves one.

But I have my awesome friends around me here.

Hopefully it's gonna be a blast.

Few more hours Nurulain Farhana.

May everything much more better than before.

May Allah ease everything.

May Allah bless everything I do, and everyone I know.

Goodbye 19.

You've taught me a lot.

Taught me to be stronger.

Thank you for all of the great and bittersweet memories.

Tears, laughs, smile, up and down.

Really gonna miss you :')

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; Mak, I miss you! :'(