please stay strong!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

mr.gendut is having his difficult time right now

nothing else i can do except giving him support from far away 

and give him all the courage i can

how i wish i can be beside him

dear mr.gendut,

please be strong

i know you're stronger than this

always remember,

Allah takkan uji hamba-Nya kalau dia tak mampu

so you can

please remember 

and

i'll always pray for you

and goodluck for your test

fighting!

love,
nurulainfarhana

dear old memories!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i guess you have found your happiness :D

i found mine, and you've found yours

congrate dear old memories!

may your life be fill with happiness and laughter

like how it used to be

i'll always pray for you

you've been part of my memories that i can't erase

thanks for all of the great memories

i really appreciate everything

sorry for all of my wrongdoing, i've forgive yours

let's start a new chapter of our life with our loves one

hidup baik-baik :DD

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

 p/s; mr.gendut, iloveyou! let's create our own memories :)

camping!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm going to endau mersing, johor for camping until sunday :DD

love,

nurulainfarhana

please be strong!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Allah, please makes me stronger

ujian apa ni Ya Allah?

tetapkan pendirian dan kejujuranku

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

p/s;  homesick and imissyou mr.gendut!

i'm tired!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i'm tired

seriously!

beberapa hari ni sangat busy dengan macam-macam benda

and there's a lot of thinks to think of

assignment berlambak, submit next week

nak kena buat apa pun macam blurr je

for the time being tengah busy with test

harini test microeconomics
i've tried my best, study macam orang gila, tak tidur
perah my otak to the max
and the end, menghadap paper dengan muka macam 'what the f***k'
i'm frustrated! seriously
 it doesn't comes out like we all expected
and not like in the exercise books at all!
Allahuakbar!

yesterday, test 2 accounting

rasa macam nak menangis bila masa tak cukup

'okay, 5 minutes left'

what the? --"

and i was like T.T
why Allah why?
kenapa jadi macam ni?
i tak cukup study ke? should i try even more harder?

 Ya Allah, letihnya

this sem, tak ada rezeki ke i nak dapat DL?

every subject is killing me

please makes me stronger Allah

another problem is marketing project for class.
still in process

i have to make sure everything is okay and done by wednesday

iklan, slide for presentation, bunting, 

wednesday weh!

why i have to do everything?
why me?
it's not that i'm saying that i do all the jobs and the others didn't
but i can say that i have to pantau everyone, bagitau itu ini baru nak buat
Ya Allah, korang semua dah besar kott
nak kena arah-arah lagi ke?
nanti cakap i ni gila kuasalah apalah
then when i asked to do something,
they come out with millions excuse
macam nak kena sepak oh!

korang je ke penat??
i ni tak penat?
i have to be the director for iklan, presenter for the project, perah otak cari nama product bila nama yang nak guna dah wujud, buat slide untuk present, tolong edit iklan
i tak mengeluh, i ikhlas buat semua tu
and bukan nak tunjuk hebat sebab buat semua benda
but where are you guys? 
 rasanya kalau tak push, jalan ke project ni?
baru suruh sikit dah mengeluh!
and who am i that i have to do all the things?
i'm not even the class leader
please, pity me :(

this Monday i have group presentation for marketing
and slide tu pun belum buat
i don't know, i just don't know what to say

sometimes, i want to be selfish and think of myself only
but then, i'm not that kind of person
please appreciate what i've done
takda pun yang puji
bukan mengharap pujian, tapi at least give me some support
where are you guys?
is this what you call teamwork? haihh

and i miss home
that's make me even more weaker
Allahuakbar :'(

if you ask me why i do all that if i'm tired,
here's my answer
if i didn't do all that, rasanya jalan ke semua ni?
#sigh

love,
nurulainfarhana

16/2/2012!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i never thought i'd love you so much

 

  my heart is perfect 

because

you are inside, gulahati <3

it's been a great and awesome 2 months

time flies really fast

thankyou for everything mr. gendut!

thanks for the time you've spent for me,

laughs and smiles that you gave me

your patient on melayan my karenah 

(merajuk, banyak songeh, menggedik, suka fikir bukan-bukan) hee i'm sorry *muka innocent

let's cherish every moment we spend together each day

and make everyday meaningful and memorable

iloveyou mr.gendut!

me, mr.lembu and elmo are missing you from here in Segamat :DD

love,

nurulainfarhana

wordless!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i miss home

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and i miss you

love,

nurulainfarhana

diploma in business society's dinner!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

diploma in business society's dinner, 11/2/2011

theme; arabian night

me wearing jubah haha

it's fun and quite okay than last year's 

but the excitement was less than last year's 

here's some of arabian people's pictures :D

we got roses :)

muka konon-konon comel -.-

aida, kasi senyum sikit :D

before dinner, dee nangis sebab her shawl macam tak okay and kitorang lambat haha

pak arab sekalian

i loves making annoying face XD

wachaa! lai lai ngurat kami ;D

i makeupkan diorang and they looked pretty :DD

ayuh syok sendiri :)

overall, it was okay
ada senior part 6 menyanyi lagu here without you
amaigadd that was the best part ;DD
i ate a lot this time and tak cirit-birit macam sem lepas
alhamdulillah haha

love,
nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

but there's a side to you that i never knew, never knew

my doubting level is increasing right now

why won't you tell the truth?

why you keep deny it?

i've heard enough and saw enough

i think i can trust what i saw and heard

how can i trust you in this situation?

i've tried, very hard to put away all of my doubts and bad feeling,

but there's always things that make it stayed in my heart

it's hurt you know?

it's hurt when you can't really trust your loves one truly eventhough you really want to

it's hurt to think that you might lie to me

it's hurt to have a doubt in my heart

hurt to doubt your feeling to me

hurt to wake up everyday with doubts still in your heart

am i important to you?

do you feel the same way i feel for you?

is she still in your heart?

your very first love that used to be your world.

it's not that i don't trust you, but i've heard and seen enough

enough to make me cry, but i won't

i'm not that pathetic

please don't take me for granted or using me to forget your past.

love,

nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i miss the time when we teased each other and being crazy without thinking of the others

when i can't stop laughing because of you

when i can act silly and being the crazy me

when people said how cute we were even we're not together at that time

i'm happy but things are not like it's used to be

it's getting more serious

not as fun and crazy as before

why?

 

am i the only one feeling this way?

i'm sorry for my attitudes T.T

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; i miss the old us and imissyou mr.gendut!

past is past!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

well sometimes, what's in the past should remained there

not to be forget, but to be taken as lesson to life

so that we can grown to be a better and stronger person

but what if the past still haunt you?

what should we do?

#sigh

it's when you try to be better than the past and realize you can't

and you're struggling because of it

when your heart is telling you to be better than the past, but you still wonder whether you can or not

i wonder, will i be able to be better than your past?

to make you happy as you were in the past?

i'm scared that i can't be as good as your past

love,

nurulainfarhana

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

i demam or on the way nak demam or really demam?

nahhh i don't know

but i really feel sick and weak

no apptetite at all

tiba-tiba je T.T

semalam, i admit i skipped meal #sigh

orang pemalas nak makan and tak sedar diri gastrik -.-

i went to the gym, konon nak workout kasi hilang lemak tepu

but then sakit perut yang teramat

and macam kena diarrhea

 

rasa lemah gila that time

tapi still chill, and that night went to bandar segamat

nak pergi tukar tiket sebab beli pukul 10

(MY LISTENING TEST IS ON SATURDAY, 10 AM. DAMN!)

went to mcdonald's and bought chicken porridge

before tu i minum dutchlady strawberry sebab nak bagi hilang sakit perut

sumpah dah lemah gila time tu

then i makanlah beberapa suap bubur tu

muka macam tak rela 

seriously no appetite at all

tengok izy makan ayam pun macam tak heran je

few minutes after that, i felt like i really gonna throw out

muntah dekat toilet mcdonald's -.-

after that terus rasa nak demam

harini the whole day i'm feeling weak

macam fever tapi macam tak pulak

grrr!

and still tak ada selera

eventhough i'm hungry right now

what to eat? :'(

nak balik rumah!

 

saturday, please come fast

love,

nurulainfarhana