if only you know !

dear niahanara,

this entry is for you :)

i know it'll sound stupid but i really wish you know it's for you

i'm not the jiwang type (hell no)

but i'm just trying to confess what i fell inside

i don't know why, but i think i have this odd feeling for you

which i really want to get rid 

it's really annoying and i don't want it to be there

please go away

stop hurting me

it's not funny when you give false hope to me

stop doing that

don't act like you care when i know you never care

i won't let you know

ever!

because you will laugh at me

i know :)

this will sound stupid to you

and mean nothing to you

how stupid i am to have this feeling

like seriously?

me, nurulain farhana? 

#sigh

i wish i can turn back time when i don't even know you ever exist

back when i never make you as part of my life

i wish i can delete you now and forever!

because you'll never realise about me

you're too busy with your life

and i'm just one of your friend :)

if only you know what i feel

but you won't

you couldn't even see it

even if it's right in front of your eyes

you're too busy with the one that's not even yours

i wish i can slap you right at your face and tell you what i really feel

but i'm too weak to do that

and i'm scare of rejection

stop make me hoping that you'll like me back

maybe this is just some feeling that will somehow disappear soon

i'm a tough girl!

yes i am

so i'll get through this

this is just some rubbish that will be thrown away someday :)

no need to worry

go on with your life

i'll do the same with my life

but don't regret what you've done to me

cause karma will somehow make you pay

and at that time, you'll feel the same way i feel

but believe me, i really do like you :)

you're stupid because you didn't realise that!

yes you are!

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s ; stop thinking about your past, there's nothing you can do about that!