dear niahanara,
this entry is for you :)
i know it'll sound stupid but i really wish you know it's for you
i'm not the jiwang type (hell no)
but i'm just trying to confess what i fell inside
i don't know why, but i think i have this odd feeling for you
which i really want to get rid
it's really annoying and i don't want it to be there
please go away
stop hurting me
it's not funny when you give false hope to me
stop doing that
don't act like you care when i know you never care
i won't let you know
ever!
because you will laugh at me
i know :)
this will sound stupid to you
and mean nothing to you
how stupid i am to have this feeling
like seriously?
me, nurulain farhana?
#sigh
i wish i can turn back time when i don't even know you ever exist
back when i never make you as part of my life
i wish i can delete you now and forever!
because you'll never realise about me
you're too busy with your life
and i'm just one of your friend :)
if only you know what i feel
but you won't
you couldn't even see it
even if it's right in front of your eyes
you're too busy with the one that's not even yours
i wish i can slap you right at your face and tell you what i really feel
but i'm too weak to do that
and i'm scare of rejection
stop make me hoping that you'll like me back
maybe this is just some feeling that will somehow disappear soon
i'm a tough girl!
yes i am
so i'll get through this
this is just some rubbish that will be thrown away someday :)
no need to worry
go on with your life
i'll do the same with my life
but don't regret what you've done to me
cause karma will somehow make you pay
and at that time, you'll feel the same way i feel
but believe me, i really do like you :)
you're stupid because you didn't realise that!
yes you are!
love,
nurulainfarhana
p/s ; stop thinking about your past, there's nothing you can do about that!