In the end, everyone end up alone.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Have you ever feel like you don't belong?

You feel like you're just a stranger trying to cope with the situation.

You fake a smile.

Hanya jasad dan senyuman palsu yang ada, hati dan fikiran melayang jauh.

Jauh memikirkan adakah kau benar-benar diterima.

Ikhlaskah?

love,

nurulainfarhana

'Bestfriend till the very end.'

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Cher Lloyd-Oath.

Yo, my best friend, best friend til the very end
Cause best friends, best friends don't have to pretend
You need a hand, and i'm right there right beside you
You in the dark, i'll be the bright light to guide you
'Member the times, times, times sneaking of the house
All of the times, times, times that you had the doubts
And don't forget all the trouble we got into
We got something you can't undo, do

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I know I drive you crazy, mm, sometimes
I know I called you lazy, and that's most times
But you complete me, and that's no lie
You are my tuxedo, and i'm your bow tie
We in the car, sing, sing, singing our song
Rocking the building, tear it down, like we king kong
And in my eyes, you can't do, do no wrong
You got the best friends sing, sing along

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I'll never let you go
Woah, this is my oath to you
Just thought that you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you

Yeah...
Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you
You should know, you should know, you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
Woah, this is my oath to you.

I wonder if there's someone out there that I can sing this song to.

Just wondering.

'Bestfriend till the very end.'

Someone who's really there and never leave.

Someone that I can always call my bestfriend.

To share everything.

To love me as I am.

love,

nurulainfarhana.

I'm 20-to-be!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Happy not so awesome-stay alone in my room in Segamat-away from family-New Year!

Oh I'm gonna turn 20 tomorrow!

Ni yang stress, lepas new year je birthday. Tak remajalah macam ni sobs.

Excited?

A big no no for that! 

20 maa, no more _teen something *dang!

Okay that's just so over reacting.

***

For the past 20 years, who am I?

What have I become?

Am I someone who can be proud of?

Am I somebody?

Am I a good servant of Allah?

Am I a good daughter to emak and abah?

Am I a good sister?

Am I a good friend?

Am I a good student?

Am I a good stranger?

What have I achieved?

I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot of wrongdoings.

Have I done my best in everything I do?

 I really don't know.

And I wish new year and new age gonna make me a better person.

Another birthday that I have to celebrate away from my family and my loves one.

But I have my awesome friends around me here.

Hopefully it's gonna be a blast.

Few more hours Nurulain Farhana.

May everything much more better than before.

May Allah ease everything.

May Allah bless everything I do, and everyone I know.

Goodbye 19.

You've taught me a lot.

Taught me to be stronger.

Thank you for all of the great and bittersweet memories.

Tears, laughs, smile, up and down.

Really gonna miss you :')

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; Mak, I miss you! :'(

I die, from inside.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

I don't know why but I can cry so easily nowadays.

am I too weak?

or too tired?

I don't know.

maybe cause there's too many things I kept inside. 

love,

nurulainfarhana

I wish...

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes I wish things are different.

far from problems that seems to never go away , hatred, frustration, sadness.

I'm too weak to see the people that I love cried and feeling sad.

I wonder how someone could be so blind, so stupid, so selfish that they can't see they are hurting people around them.

have such high ego that they couldn't see they were the one who at fault.

creating problems without even think of it first.

I'm tired,

and ANNOYED.

Ya Allah.

love,
nurulainfarhana

I won't put my hands up and surrender.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes you have the feeling, the urge, the desire to fulfill everyone's wishes.

everyone around you.

 to give everything they want in life.

everything they need.

everything you think they need.

but you just so helpless.

when all you can do is watch.

and pray that one day,

one fine day, you have the power to fulfill these dream.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Please guide me to the right path.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes I wonder, am I doing the right thing?

is this feeling right?

I'm scared.

love,

nurulainfarhana

pabila jantung berdegup lebih laju dari biasa.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

*jantung dupdapdupdap

esok pagi, result final examination semester 3 akan keluar menjengah dan memunculkan diri tanpa rasa belas kasihan sobs

Ya Allah, takutnya!

tak tahu nak expect apa.

Dean's List?

I don't know T.T

tapi kalau dapat, bersyukur sangat sangat sangat.

jantung ni dari tadi laju melebihi tahap normal.

nervous gila bak hang -.-

malam ni macam tak boleh nak melelapkan mata je rasanya.

kalau mr.gendut ada sekarang ni, mesti I dah bebel-bebel cuak terlebih kat dia huu.

he's still on the plane I guess.

have a safe journey okay.

please pray for me.

untunglah tak payah check result awal-awal kan? haha

I'll have to do something so that I won't feel nervous as hell!

nak tidur boleh tak? and tak bangun esok satu hari muehehehe *sigh

apa-apa pun, redha dengan apa pun result yang keluar esok.

dah cuba sehabis mungkin, tawakal. so kena redha.

bak kata Ustazah Semanis Kurma,

'anda buat, anda dapat' haha

love,

nurulainfarhana

I'm in love with you, and all these little things.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Time flies really fast when you have fun.

a year back, on the same date as today,

 I met him for the first time.

not the first time technically cause we're on the same school way back then,

but I never talked to him or even care about his existence LOL

we were a complete stranger.

living in our own world, doing our own stuffs.

7 November 2011.

mark the date.

I met him.

we were going out together, just the two of us.

crazy-last minute planning-lepaking

I still can't recall why on earth I was going out with a stranger I've only known through facebook.
yeah, thank you facebook haha.

maybe because we were comfortable with each other.

sharing stories.

chatting the whole night sampai Subuh.

make fun of each other.

laughing.

fighting.

I miss the old time :')

first time I met you, I never thought you'll be so important to me.

never thought we'll make it this far.

creating so much memories.

left-le mr.gendut one year ago and right, he's now.

selekeh gila I time zaman tok kaduk setahun dulu muahahaha -.-
mr.gendut cakap, sekarang snap picture with le girlfriend and she's mine,
 tak macam a year ago anyonyonyo :3

he'll fly to Beijing tomorrow and will be gone for a week.
holiday with his friends from Uitm Penang sobs
how I wish me iz can go also.
 please take care and come back safely.
lovechuuu.

love,
nurulainfarhana

If you're a bird, i'm a bird.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 I want you, I want all of you, forever, you and me everyday. 

 

**

 

 The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more.

 

**

 

I've just finished watching The Notebook.

aww it makes me cried :')

it's a beautiful movie.

I know i'm a little bit lame cause I watched it for the first time, whatevaaa haha

I really wish I could read the novel too.

it would be wayyyyy more interesting, right?

Nicholas Spark is soo awesome.

 oh man, wish to love like Noah and Allie

so passionate and really know what their heart want.

love till their end of life.

isn't that adorable? :')

and the way he's looking at her is so, I don't know how to describe. so something.

will you look at me the same way mr.gendut? haha

 

love,

nurulainfarhana