I die, from inside.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

I don't know why but I can cry so easily nowadays.

am I too weak?

or too tired?

I don't know.

maybe cause there's too many things I kept inside. 

love,

nurulainfarhana

I wish...

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes I wish things are different.

far from problems that seems to never go away , hatred, frustration, sadness.

I'm too weak to see the people that I love cried and feeling sad.

I wonder how someone could be so blind, so stupid, so selfish that they can't see they are hurting people around them.

have such high ego that they couldn't see they were the one who at fault.

creating problems without even think of it first.

I'm tired,

and ANNOYED.

Ya Allah.

love,
nurulainfarhana

I won't put my hands up and surrender.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes you have the feeling, the urge, the desire to fulfill everyone's wishes.

everyone around you.

 to give everything they want in life.

everything they need.

everything you think they need.

but you just so helpless.

when all you can do is watch.

and pray that one day,

one fine day, you have the power to fulfill these dream.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Please guide me to the right path.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes I wonder, am I doing the right thing?

is this feeling right?

I'm scared.

love,

nurulainfarhana

pabila jantung berdegup lebih laju dari biasa.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

*jantung dupdapdupdap

esok pagi, result final examination semester 3 akan keluar menjengah dan memunculkan diri tanpa rasa belas kasihan sobs

Ya Allah, takutnya!

tak tahu nak expect apa.

Dean's List?

I don't know T.T

tapi kalau dapat, bersyukur sangat sangat sangat.

jantung ni dari tadi laju melebihi tahap normal.

nervous gila bak hang -.-

malam ni macam tak boleh nak melelapkan mata je rasanya.

kalau mr.gendut ada sekarang ni, mesti I dah bebel-bebel cuak terlebih kat dia huu.

he's still on the plane I guess.

have a safe journey okay.

please pray for me.

untunglah tak payah check result awal-awal kan? haha

I'll have to do something so that I won't feel nervous as hell!

nak tidur boleh tak? and tak bangun esok satu hari muehehehe *sigh

apa-apa pun, redha dengan apa pun result yang keluar esok.

dah cuba sehabis mungkin, tawakal. so kena redha.

bak kata Ustazah Semanis Kurma,

'anda buat, anda dapat' haha

love,

nurulainfarhana

I'm in love with you, and all these little things.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Time flies really fast when you have fun.

a year back, on the same date as today,

 I met him for the first time.

not the first time technically cause we're on the same school way back then,

but I never talked to him or even care about his existence LOL

we were a complete stranger.

living in our own world, doing our own stuffs.

7 November 2011.

mark the date.

I met him.

we were going out together, just the two of us.

crazy-last minute planning-lepaking

I still can't recall why on earth I was going out with a stranger I've only known through facebook.
yeah, thank you facebook haha.

maybe because we were comfortable with each other.

sharing stories.

chatting the whole night sampai Subuh.

make fun of each other.

laughing.

fighting.

I miss the old time :')

first time I met you, I never thought you'll be so important to me.

never thought we'll make it this far.

creating so much memories.

left-le mr.gendut one year ago and right, he's now.

selekeh gila I time zaman tok kaduk setahun dulu muahahaha -.-
mr.gendut cakap, sekarang snap picture with le girlfriend and she's mine,
 tak macam a year ago anyonyonyo :3

he'll fly to Beijing tomorrow and will be gone for a week.
holiday with his friends from Uitm Penang sobs
how I wish me iz can go also.
 please take care and come back safely.
lovechuuu.

love,
nurulainfarhana

If you're a bird, i'm a bird.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 I want you, I want all of you, forever, you and me everyday. 

 

**

 

 The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more.

 

**

 

I've just finished watching The Notebook.

aww it makes me cried :')

it's a beautiful movie.

I know i'm a little bit lame cause I watched it for the first time, whatevaaa haha

I really wish I could read the novel too.

it would be wayyyyy more interesting, right?

Nicholas Spark is soo awesome.

 oh man, wish to love like Noah and Allie

so passionate and really know what their heart want.

love till their end of life.

isn't that adorable? :')

and the way he's looking at her is so, I don't know how to describe. so something.

will you look at me the same way mr.gendut? haha

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

so we made our way by finding what was real.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

there's a question that keeps on appearing in my head

and keeps on playing in my mind.

I wonder why we keep on doing thing that is certainly wrong?

it's like some sort of habit and most of the people are doing it without even feel guilty.

when I say most of the people, I mean all of the people around me.

is it a habit? 

or a routine?

or something you feel proud of?

or you feel like doing it because everyone else did?

or what?

I don't know.

even the people that I didn't even think will do that thing is doing it.

why?

even me, myself #sigh

I know it's wrong and I do feel guilty about it but why I didn't say anything?

why don't you say anything?

yeah I know we shouldn't judge someone with their appearance.

but I trusted you.

you're supposed to be different.

it's weird you know.

it's like having a conversation in your head.

when there's a tiny little voice keeps on reminds you that you did wrong and you should feel guilty,

but then there's you, trying to ignore that voice.

and in the same time, you're scared.

scared of what might happen next.

scared of your own self.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Do You Come Here Often?

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

it has been so long since I read novel.

there's one, been reading it since the beginning of my 3rd semester LOL.

there's always no time to finish it,

or too lazy to read I guess.

gonna finish it as soon as I can cause I really want to buy a new one,

the author's others novels.

 

**

one cup of warm milk.

comforter.

my cute little blue-rare-couldn't sleep without-bantal busuk.

 lifehouse's songs on music player.

** 

i'm ready to indulge myself with this novel.

Do You Come Here Often? by Alexandria Potter.

love,

nurulainfarhana

 

don't expect too much.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

sometimes people change.

things change.

or you expect it to be different.

wanted things to happen the way you wanted.

you feels annoyed.

and dissappointed in the end.

learn to accept.

redha.

accept people as they are.

accept things as they are.

the same way they accept you.

the beautiful and also the ugliest you.

even you are not that good.
so why bother searching for a better?

stand in front of the mirror.
check your own self.

everything happen for a reason.

wether it's bad or good, you decide.

love,

nurulainfarhana