Seize the day.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

You'll never know what would happen the next day. 

Hari ni kau berjanji sehidup semati tapi esok mungkin kau menyampah dan bosan dengan pasangan kau. 

Hari ni mungkin kau cakap kau sayang kat dia dan tidak akan menduakan. 

Tapi kau juga yang bakal melanggar apa yang kau katakan tu.

Manusia adalah makhluk pelanggar janji. 

Selalunya apa yang dijanjikan amat susah untuk ditunaikan. 

Secara jujurnya adalah lebih elok untuk tidak berjanji. 

Kadang-kadang janji-janji kita ni akan memakan diri.

Kadang-kadang kita berdosa untuk bersikap jujur. 

Kata-kata jujur-walaupun benar, namun ia akan dihina. 

Kadang-kadang hidup ini adalah lebih baik menjadi hipokrit untuk diterima dari bersikap jujur. 

AwekChuckTaylor-Nami Cob Nobbler

love,

nurulainfarhana

Belajar by Wani Ardy.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Aku manusia biasa, kadang sia

Melihat hujan sebagai rahmat; biar basah kuyup ia bukan beban
Mencari sayang di dalam benci; merendah diri, membuka hati
Melihat gelas separuh penuh; yang kosong itu mungkin kita perlu
Mencari syukur dalam tiap-tiap dugaan Tuhan

Sukarnya namun aku belajar

Melihat hujan sebagai rahmat; biar basah kuyup ia bukan beban
Mencari helai daun yang hijau, dalam terbentang luas kemarau
Melihat gelas separuh penuh; yang kosong itu mungkin kita perlu
Mencari syukur dalam tiap-tiap dugaan Tuhan

Sukarnya namun aku belajar.

 

Belajar by Wani Ardy. 

 

The lyrics is just so beautiful.

love,

nurulainfarhana

I don't quite know how to say how I feel.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Berlawan dengan perasaan sendiri boleh membunuh.

love,

nurulainfarhana

Why am I doing this to myself?

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

                  
 Jessie J-Who you are.

' Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising.'

love,
nurulainfarhana 

Loneliness.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

 

Background: Coldplay-Fix You

 

 When you try your best but you don't succeed  

When you get what you want but not what you need  

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep  

Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face  

When you lose something you can't replace  

When you love someone but it goes to waste 

Could it be worse?

 

*pause*

 

***

 

I've learn that no matter how much you smile, 

how much you laugh,

how hard you tried to hide how you really feel inside, 

it will eventually be useless in the end.

Fake smiles on the outside,

miserable and sad in the inside,

that tearing every part of your heart.

 

No matter how much you tried to fit in,

you will eventually failed in the end.

Because you're just another stranger and unimportant person who happen to be there.

Who happen to laugh and smile with them.

How many of them who really accept you?

 *insert sarcastic smile*

Accept you among them.

At the very end, you are still a stranger.

 

A stranger who try very hard everyday to put a smile.

 To fit in.

Unimportant person who try to make herself important to the people around.

Unimportant person who feel she was all alone.

Unimportant person who tried to be friend with everyone who will eventually left her for their bestfriend

and not even remember that she was there, wanting to feel important too.

Unimportant person who in the end sit alone in her room,

alone with just herself.

And thinking on how unimportant she is to the people around. 

 

 “Loneliness in a crowd of people was the worst kind of loneliness, but she couldn't help it.”

-Lauren Kate, Torment-

 

 “Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.” 

-Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper-

 

love,

nurulainfarhana

Allah, berikan aku segala kekuatanMu.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Hidup.

Ada duri, ada ranjau.

Ada masa kau gembira.

Ada masa kau derita.

Kau diuji.

Bertalu-talu.

Sehingga robek hatimu.

Jatuh, bangun, tersungkur.

Kau sendiri dalam ramai.

Kau senyum dalam perit.

Sunyi.

Pedih.

Allahuakbar.

love,

nurulainfarhana

DenganMu aku hidup.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Bila ujian dan dugaan datang bertimpa-timpa,

dan kau rasa lemah,

jatuh,

sedih,

menangis.

Ingat, Allah sentiasa ada.

Berat manapun dugaan, 

Allah tak akan duga kalau kau tak mampu hadapi.

love,

nurulainfarhana

In the end, everyone end up alone.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Have you ever feel like you don't belong?

You feel like you're just a stranger trying to cope with the situation.

You fake a smile.

Hanya jasad dan senyuman palsu yang ada, hati dan fikiran melayang jauh.

Jauh memikirkan adakah kau benar-benar diterima.

Ikhlaskah?

love,

nurulainfarhana

'Bestfriend till the very end.'

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Cher Lloyd-Oath.

Yo, my best friend, best friend til the very end
Cause best friends, best friends don't have to pretend
You need a hand, and i'm right there right beside you
You in the dark, i'll be the bright light to guide you
'Member the times, times, times sneaking of the house
All of the times, times, times that you had the doubts
And don't forget all the trouble we got into
We got something you can't undo, do

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I know I drive you crazy, mm, sometimes
I know I called you lazy, and that's most times
But you complete me, and that's no lie
You are my tuxedo, and i'm your bow tie
We in the car, sing, sing, singing our song
Rocking the building, tear it down, like we king kong
And in my eyes, you can't do, do no wrong
You got the best friends sing, sing along

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the scars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I'll never let you go
Woah, this is my oath to you
Just thought that you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you

Yeah...
Wherever you go, just always remember
That you got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you
You should know, you should know, you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you
You never alone, we're birds of a feather
Woah, this is my oath to you.

I wonder if there's someone out there that I can sing this song to.

Just wondering.

'Bestfriend till the very end.'

Someone who's really there and never leave.

Someone that I can always call my bestfriend.

To share everything.

To love me as I am.

love,

nurulainfarhana.

I'm 20-to-be!

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Happy not so awesome-stay alone in my room in Segamat-away from family-New Year!

Oh I'm gonna turn 20 tomorrow!

Ni yang stress, lepas new year je birthday. Tak remajalah macam ni sobs.

Excited?

A big no no for that! 

20 maa, no more _teen something *dang!

Okay that's just so over reacting.

***

For the past 20 years, who am I?

What have I become?

Am I someone who can be proud of?

Am I somebody?

Am I a good servant of Allah?

Am I a good daughter to emak and abah?

Am I a good sister?

Am I a good friend?

Am I a good student?

Am I a good stranger?

What have I achieved?

I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot of wrongdoings.

Have I done my best in everything I do?

 I really don't know.

And I wish new year and new age gonna make me a better person.

Another birthday that I have to celebrate away from my family and my loves one.

But I have my awesome friends around me here.

Hopefully it's gonna be a blast.

Few more hours Nurulain Farhana.

May everything much more better than before.

May Allah ease everything.

May Allah bless everything I do, and everyone I know.

Goodbye 19.

You've taught me a lot.

Taught me to be stronger.

Thank you for all of the great and bittersweet memories.

Tears, laughs, smile, up and down.

Really gonna miss you :')

love,

nurulainfarhana

p/s; Mak, I miss you! :'(