You don't know what it is like to be like me.

Have you ever feel the moment bila kau dah penat dengan something and rasa dah give up.

Bila kau fed up and benci dengan semua benda.

Bila kau rasa sedih, marah sampai sakit dada dan semua bercampur-baur dan kau hanya mampu menangis dan menangis.

Menangis untuk keluarkan semua yang kau rasa, semua yang kau simpan dalam-dalam.

Menangis sampai dah tak mampu bercakap,  sampai satu tahap kau dah tak mampu menangis.
Kau bangun, masuk bilik air, tengok muka dekat cermin, tengok betapa bengkaknya muka kau, kau cuci muka dan keluar.
Keluar dan cuba jadi kuat balik.
Berpura-pura macam nothing happened.
And you wear back that fake smile.
For the sake of the people you love.
Have you?
You'll never know how much it hurt.

Everytime I said I am okay, I cried on the inside.

I am a broken pieces.

I thought I was strong enough to face everything, to go through everything and being strong for the people I love, but i'm not.
I thought that life gonna be easy and everyone gonna be happy but I was wrong.
I thought I've done the best I could, but I didn't.
I thought i'm not gonna cry in the middle of the night anymore, but I still did.
I thought I have everyone for me, but I feel alone and lonely.
Ya Allah, things are too hard.
Please ease everything and put a smile to the people I love.

My favourite.

There's still a good time even when you're tired of everything and feel like your life is upside down.
Mine is when I met my favourite person and ate good foods.

Memories are better left as memories.

As I packed my stuffs and put everything back into its place, I realized that I still cling onto the past.
There's stuffs like pictures and else that I still keep.
Things that I shouldn't be keeping.
*sigh* Stupid me.
I've always being the type of person who always cherish every memories that I have.
And keep everything that I think important.
Keeping memories is good, but keep only the good one.
I should get rid of everything unnecessary and start all over.
A fresh start.
And an empty drawer to put a new things, new memories.

We're still in the process of moving out. 50% I guess.
There's still too many things to pack.

Pray to Allah, He always there.

Some people can be so selfish and think only about themselves.
I just don't get it.
Don't you think of the feeling of the people around you?
How can you be so selfish?
If I have the power to change everything and make everything better, I've done it, long ago.
But I can't.
I can't do anything about that.
And my du'a is my only hope.
Pray for the happiness of the peole around me and the people I love.
Pray that everything gonna be okay someday.

There's a rainbow after rain.

Live your life to the fullest.
Face all tests from Allah calmly and redha.
Because everything gonna be worth it one day.
What's life without challenges, right?

Don't expect too much, berpada-pada.

 Kita marah2 sbb nk dia buat apa yg kita rasa fit dgn piawaian kita. Like, why dont u call me enough, why dont you love me enough, etc. Sbb we have certain expectation. Bila ia x menepati, itu yg buat kita frust. Kita jd kejam sbb kita frust.

                                                                                             Fynn Jamal.

I'm the type of person who find it difficult to express what I feel deep inside.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

dear niahanara,

Too many thoughts.

Too many things.

Kept.

Inside my head.

Wanted to spill it out.

But I just don't know how.

And nobody's there to listen.

Cause I know, when I do so, I won't get the respond I expected to get.

Too dull.

Too frustrated.

And I give up.

On spilling my thoughts.

I keep it, tightly inside my head.

Sometimes people don't really understand your feeling cause they didn't going through what you've been going through.

love,

nurulainfarhana